Points To Ponder

[Elmer]

Since beginning my dreams around eight years ago, I've worn many dream hats. Gardener, chef, ruler, guardian, seer, teacher, fortune teller, zoo keeper, husband, tattoo artist, spa owner, hair and wardrobe stylist, event coordinator, therapist, musician, poet, comedian, storyteller, friend and confidante.

Some have worn only one hat, some have worn several, and some just don't know which hat to choose. Some hats are worn for years, some for a day, some even less than that.

Do we know what hat fits us best? Do we know why we wear the hats? Do others, know what is truly under someone else's hat?
There is nothing wrong with having a variety of hats, or just one, but when the hats are removed, do we take the time to know who and what is truly under them?
Just something to ponder.

[Elmer]

Continuing to ponder on the hats we wear from my last entry.


What is to be done when discovering a fraud under their particular supposedly well fitting hat?

Challenge them?, ignore them?, dismiss them?, publicly humiliate them?, or simply do nothing, carrying on as normal, with the knowledge that no one is being fooled, that all know the true colors that are under that hat.

Still pondering.

[Elmer]

Last night as I dreamt in the company of Ezhar, Tempus, Pamelar, Ironies and..um.., I will call him Anton, as I can't actually recall his entire name, but it was a long name and I thought to myself I wondered of anyone called him Anton. Anyways, I am getting off topic, as I usually do.

As I was dreaming and quietly listening to the conversation, I was going through my rucksack and wondered why I had all the things that I have. Most specifically a quest codex which I asked for recently.

Now I have no idea whatsoever WHY I asked for that quest codex, and I will tell you why I write this. About 8 years ago or so, I mentored under Tamarisk for a halo, who I revered, actually, reverence would be an understatement, he was one of a kind and I admired his teaching and his counsel and above all I treasured his friendship. I did not set out in the first place to get the halo, what I wanted was, and what I definitely got, was just the chance to LEARN from and work with him, which I did for many months, years even.

I did eventually get the halo, and I believe that I got my train level plateaued once, but I ended up handing in my halo, by my own choice, because I realized that the teaching is not in the halo. The teaching is in every dream, everywhere, all around us. Also at that time in my dreams I realized that power and spheres and "strength" was not what I wanted, those things don't mean anything to me.

So looking at the quest codex in my rucksack, it is an amazing quest, and I will do it just for the learning aspect of it and the intriguing and enlightening conversation that will no doubt follow when I report to my teacher, but as for the plateau I sought, I will decline.

This is not why I dream. This has never been why I dream.

I think in the beginning of our dreams there is a certain amount of "peer pressure" right away to grow strong in arts and abilities and overall physical strength. I wish I had never caved to that pressure, but there is time to amend it, and continue my dreams as I feel they should be. Learning, teaching people things they may not have known, without the use of a halo, exploring, hopefully bringing smiles to dreamers faces once in awhile, and keeping the dream alive.

I have probably written it before, and probably many others have to. Dream your dreams they way you wish them to be, not the way others think that you should.

Still pondering.