The Consequential Burden~ To Eldryck and Dumah

[Roleplayer]

Opens an old psalm..and reads it to herself.

It starts as a sort of hollow feeling in the pit of your stomach
And spreads throughout your mind and avatar.
Then it’s above your head, crushing you with its heaviness.
It’s like you want to faint.
It’s like you to want to sit down on the ground and never get back up.
The Weight hovers above you, consuming your dreams.
It bears down on you.
The Weight of sin, of darkness, of heartbreak.
The Weight of death. The Weight of loss.
The Weight of injustice.
*
The questions come.
The sadness comes.
*
The Weight will suck you in if you don’t keep walking
one foot in front of the other.
It could pull you in and crush your very life.
Day in and day out,
One foot in front of the other.
One foot in front of the other,
Day in and day out.
You keep moving, because if you don’t you’ll be crushed and pulled under.
*
So you walk, and you walk and you run, and you move quickly.
And you become addicted to interests and things and places,
Because if you let yourself stop for too long…
The hollowness in the pit of your stomach comes back
and it soon overtakes your whole body.
The Weight comes back.
*
So you sprint and sprint and sprint
and the dream becomes a blur
a blur you’re not sure you can ever recover from
and you exist
and you don’t let people get too close
because you know the deepest pains
of what it means to truly care about others
so you sprint and sprint and sprint
and you keep busy busy busy.
Because if you’re busy the Weight can’t crush you.
That’s what you think.
*
But in your busyness the Weight begins to overtake your heart.
In keeping dreamers away, at arms or planes length you feel alone.
You are alone with the Weight.
No matter how fast you sprint, the Weight is INSIDE you.
There is no escaping it.
Day in and day out
the Weight eats away at you.
It destroys your avatars health and your body, your dreams are no longer trusted.
It kills your feelings and leaves you numb, numb, numb—
*
And suddenly, you want a void, a place to hide.
You want to dissociate because then you’d escape the Weight.
The crushing Weight, the hollowness, the possible losses, the questions.
a Dream is not worth dreaming with the burden is hanging over you, inside you.
If you could just separate, the Weight would be lifted.
To be before seems better than this dream now.
*
And for a moment, you forget that the Weight is not a burden
that can be carried alone.
Dreamers must come alongside you to bear the load.
So you must ask, ask those who can help to help.
Let them share your burdens,
Let them see your tears,
Let them feel your emotions…
Let them bring you laughter and joy and comfort.
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I beg of you both, don’t let this weight, this consequential burden crush another victim within the City of Dreams.